I can’t stop crying
Tears are just falling down my face.
How badly I want to leave this world.
I can’t. I can’t leave my mom.

Fuck wait no no.
Don’t want an anxiety attack right now.

Not deep enough. But enough to get my through the night. I think.

The scariest part of it all is I know I would just kill myself.

Fuck they bled through my jeans at school

Sister walks in as I’m sitting here watching them bleed. Shallow, but multiple. Don’t think she saw.

Now they sting against my pants.

Five little cuts. To get me through the next day. Just reminders.

Im trying everything my therapist wants me to. 

and i still want to cut.

so. fucking. bad.

Our first kiss is still my favorite.